derby machines need bacon

so here i am, days from my skills test. a part of the breakfast club, the toughest, most determined ladies i have had the privilege to get to know. im nervous. ive worked so hard. the hardest part is getting 25 laps in 5 min. i accomplished this last night and was so excited. in fact, i did it twice. now hopefully ill be able to do it sunday.

its weird to me to find something that just clicks. i can do this. this is something that seems made for me. jason said im just naturally athletic, i dont see it. every time i come home from practice, hyper because ive done something better. i feel it. the click. its there, and im not gonna give up.

last night i had 4 laps to go, and i felt that snap. i sprinted. i skated hard. i felt like i was gonna throw up. i want this so bad i just went. i came in with 10 seconds to spare. i pushed through the wall that was being 2 or 3 laps off. and i did it. i better be able to sunday.

the prize at the end of this is a registered derby name and the ability to skate on the team. to be able to hit hard. to help assault city win. to be part of a team of girls who love me. its amazing. and im nervously awaiting the time to prove myself.

i will do this. ive worked too hard not to.