people and why i hate them

i just came back from an awesome vacation in az. i hung out, i ate good food, i went on little adventures with my cousins, i even was nice to a baby (i dont get along with babys)

it was nice.

the travel part pissed me off. part one of my rant is that airlines are as shady as the health care system. my flight on us air from north carolina was late by 2 min. because of this, i had to run across an air port, only to miss the connecting flight for the same airline. as they shut the door and i yelled "wait i have a ticket for this flight" they ignored me. in line to speak to someone about what to do next, i realized more than half my flight from nc was in line with me, all with the same issue. airline said to get a shuttle. we said pay for it. they said fuck off. i stood angry in line as i paid some lady $43 to put me on a bus to tucson, 2 hours away, when i had a plane ticket to tucson in my hand that was no longer valid due to the weather. it was on this bus that i learned they over booked all flights to tucson by 10 seats, so not only were they happy i missed my flight because they didnt have to piss other people off, they didnt have to refund my ticket and made me pay extra to get where they were soposed to take me in the first place.

the flight home was better, except the flight to syracuse was over booked as well. they pleaded with everyone to have 6 people give up their seats. when on the plane, the seat next to me was empty.

in short, fuck airlines.


part 2- people in my life.

there are alot of people im "friends" with. you know the type, your bfs friends who he sees all the time but you see once in a while, say hi to in the mall and are friends on facebook but normaly would not go out of your way to hang out with.
i always thought the rule was to be friendly untill someone upset you? guess not. jasons best friend john is dating caitlin. i always thought she and i got along. i never said anything negative to her, never was rude or mean. always polite and invited her to gatherings. but aparently she no longer likes me. enough to specificly tell john not to invite me to their haloween party. i was so excited when i got the invite and while hanging out with jason i mentioned that i said id go, when he announces "realy? you got invited? funny because caitlin specificly asked john not to invite you" aparently john decided its his party and she has no say. ive only been dating his best friend for 2 yearsish.

it was the night he said this to me that made everything come crashing down. my shit tastic b day, where i went to PA to spend time with family only to be ignored unless i stopped at sonic. where i spent my day in toys r us while jason searched for figures and i was bored. my stupid travel issues, the tom shit. and now someone i havent talked to in a year hates me enough to not want me at a party but wants my bf there? its total shit, but flashed that whole "not wanted" thing into my head so fast i fell down crying while jason listened.
i need help.

mom is looking into state funded counceling things because there is no reason for this stuff to cause a break down like that. especialy after a nice vacation.

hopefully it works