more issues

things have not been so good. my stress level is higher than it has been, despite me taking down time every monday to enjoy a sandwich at strong hearts alone.

ive been throwing up blood again, i had a CT scan last week, ill find out the results next friday. if they cant find anything, im done with doctors.

i keep sleeping more than usual. last weekend i didnt sleep at all, thanks to jason. but now i dont want to do anything but sleep. probably the depression sinking in.

i saw the house, i cant remember if i mentioned it last post, but it is bigger, and looks alot better than this house. this place feels fake. pseudo hotel room white walls, tan carpet, tiny kitchen. im looking forward to open space flat, hardwood floors and full kitchen. also, my house is green.

comming up on a year and 8 months with jason, going to the ren fest, i dont know if hes aware that its that day we are going, but it just happened to work out that way.


and now to you- why are you following me when we had a nice fall out, and when i tried to offer help to you for winter, you shut me out? im just curious.