FML

so latly everyone ive been in contact with has decided to snap at me or yell at me. this includes the doctor, customers, and jasons mom. im sick of this and its been making me upset.

on top of all that, we need to have rent by friday to move in, nick and i had no problem with this, however louis did. it came to me having to cover his half of rent and when i explained by doing this i would not get to go to ren fest, he explained how he had everything budgeted out so he could go to ren fest.....and thought it was ok that i wasnt going to get to go because of him. thankfully dad has a checkbook and knows how often i take weekends off, so he helped me out.

in other news, im looking for a new room mate.

more issues

things have not been so good. my stress level is higher than it has been, despite me taking down time every monday to enjoy a sandwich at strong hearts alone.

ive been throwing up blood again, i had a CT scan last week, ill find out the results next friday. if they cant find anything, im done with doctors.

i keep sleeping more than usual. last weekend i didnt sleep at all, thanks to jason. but now i dont want to do anything but sleep. probably the depression sinking in.

i saw the house, i cant remember if i mentioned it last post, but it is bigger, and looks alot better than this house. this place feels fake. pseudo hotel room white walls, tan carpet, tiny kitchen. im looking forward to open space flat, hardwood floors and full kitchen. also, my house is green.

comming up on a year and 8 months with jason, going to the ren fest, i dont know if hes aware that its that day we are going, but it just happened to work out that way.


and now to you- why are you following me when we had a nice fall out, and when i tried to offer help to you for winter, you shut me out? im just curious.

moving...again

so nick louis and i are moving to solvay. nick and i looked at the house wich is owned and rented by moms friend, who happens to be one of jasons highschool teachers. its kinda silly. NO PETS ALLOWED....except ikis and harvey, because he likes us.
we have a full kitchen, where we can keep the table jasons mom gave me, not outside of it in the living room, actualy in the kitchen. all the rooms are good sized and the living room is about the same size.

its about $75 cheaper and on solvay electric so it will save us alot.


now if only people would start packing instead of it being me who is doing everything. including cleaning.