Monday, November 24, 2008

ben barnett owns a chunk of my sanity

kind of like spitting always causes me to want to write. i dont know why. its weird, but oh well, ive neglected this thing long enough that a doubble post seems like its ok. i still miss morning tea/coco with you btw. you own a chunk of my sanity as well.

i cant wrap my head around the fact that its been a year. something i didnt think would happen, happens then i didnt think it would last more than a few months. in my head he was destined to be one of the great let downs of my life and probably the last straw in what was the worst few years of my mental health.

but it didnt happen....
hes still here....
every week i wake up with him next to me.

for the first time in many years, i can say at this moment in NY im happy.



NIN felt werid with ed, maybe because mike wasnt there. i need to put that picture on my wall i think. the one of me mike and jeremy before NIN in saratoga. the rare picture of me actualy happy.

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