10 hours for broken english

this is the first time ive been able to sit down at the comp in a few days.
jason and i had to cancel our boston trip thanks to hour cuts but this PA trip was worth it.
driving to reading PA, 5 hours there, and 5 hours back, all in one day, for a bunch of bands from europe who speak broken english. yea it was a total adventure. we even got sonic on the way so more fun. we got stuck in traffic on the way there so we missed the meet and greet which sucked. BUT when the show started i noticed people in the audience who i didnt think would be there, mainly gunnar, kerri, and terji from tyr, and all of korpiklaani. i went to the bar, hung out with jason and nick then while on my way to the bathroom, ran into terji and told him how we drove 5 hours to see them. he hugged me and called me a sweet heart so yea, WIN!

tyrs set was incredible, jason shoved me to the front so i got to be close. korplikaani was insane. ive never seen anything like them, drunken folk metal, but nothing depressing, all bouncy happy fun, i couldnt stop smiling the entire time.

we got home at 6 am, i drove the entire time, it sucked but hannah wouldnt let us crash with her, so we had no choice realy, thanks to hour cuts i couldnt really afford the trip to begin with, much less a hotel room. it was ok though, when we got home jason and i passed out.

all in all a good trip.


on the work front im picking up hours when i can, ive been averaging over 20-25 so it wont be too bad.




that is the video for vodka by korpiklaani btw, see how fun they are!

stress filled relief?

oh new year. starting it off with major hour cuts at walmart, im down to 13 hours a week, from my normal 32. luckily i have about $450 saved and will be able to throw a good chunk of next check into that savings.
ive decided that since its only gonna last a month, i might as well take advantage of this. its snowy, and cold and so i get to stay snuggly in my bed watching cartoons and eating soup. the only slight worry i have is paying bills, but i have enough to cover a month and more of bills saved, and ill at least be getting $200 a check, so i should be ok. im not worried about food because my family wouldnt let me starve, mom has a bag of ham for me at home, and im gonna be there for 2 days for dinner and im sure ill get left overs.

its almost relieving to have time to just lay around instead of rush around. jason is helping me out, he filled my gas tank on new years eve and we have lots of no cost adventures planed. the last "expensive" adventure is our trip to see tyr in PA. nick and jason are helping with gas for that too so it shouldnt be bad. and i have $80 in change i have saved, i wont use all of it either, so ill have extra moneys with my saving.

i feel good. its good to know that if i need it my parents will help, but i dont want to need them. i can weather this storm.

also- i applied to a bunch of jobs at upstate so hopefully ill have stability soon.

my happy list

jason suggested i do this.

things that make me happy
by kt.

i have an ikis! hes a healthy little lizard who makes me laugh.
i have the walking dead comic books that make me dream of zombies
i look damn good in those pictures mariana took.
i made a lesbian who hates me question her views on me because of said pictures
i have a jason. who i almost lost, probably did lose at one point, but got back.
and now he says "i love you" before he goes away from AIM or text. that never used to happen alot.
i have had trips to see NIN that made me happy
i have rum.
i have some money put away, not as much as i would like, but its something when i used to have nothing.
i get to sleep in a taun taun.

more later

back to normal?

well normal rants anyway. tonights subject- adventure

the first 2 weekends in january im spending in PA and MA to see this amazing band called tyr

they are amazing and i love them.
with jason and i back on track it should be a fun adventure. staying the night with hannah in PA and in a hotel in MA, we are gonna explore both areas the next day.

in other adventure news- jason and i did a photo shoot thats now on facebook!

on the subject of good thoughts

well some things are bad, like g funk posting about my tattoo so thus me not getting to go, (i figure ill get it later when all the jason mess blows over, dont wanna add shit to the storm)

but good has come too.
jason apologized fully. he said his stuff, and i gave him a list of stuff that wont happen any more or im walking. it was a good conversation, and he made plans to go out tonight for our 2 year.
we went to quakersteak and lube, that was fun. then we went to dans party which was also fun. i love seeing dans family and his dogs are cute.

i worked 60 hours this past week, but our pay period starts on fridays, so with my work week starting on wed, i ended up working 12 days straight. included in this was black friday working 12am-9am then sleeping a bit then comming in from 430-10. id say im never doing that again but i dont have to because walmart hates giving over time so this was a one time deal i think.

jason sent me a link to a chrones site that said there is research that is proving that antioxidants are helping chrones patients along with stress reduction like yoga. this made me excited this morning because i already pump the green tea and pom juice, and i just got my orientation set up for group.

also- ive been taking vitimin d which has done wonders. its that little boost of happy that has made all the difference in my mood. its like a hug in pill form.


back on the subject of black friday- it was something ive never seen before. toys hurled in the air, people screaming, people trampling other people. they gave us event staff vests. mine is hanging proudly in my room.


christmas should be ok this year. last year jason and i took kyle to the movies to see the spirit. this year we are taking her to see sherlock holms. im excited.




yea thats all i got for now. i guess ill spend tattoo money on christmas presents. thats a good thing.

simply put

i win

blarggggggggggg

so as anyone who has been reading this fucked up train wreck of a relationship, you will be happy to know its on hold for a month.
it came down to break up or try this and its ok.
i figure if it ends, then hell, ive had over a month to remember what being alone is like, and if it goes back to us together, then yay.
until then, im taking this month to do what i want. my tattoo will be done, im gonna fix my room up, go to scranton to drink with hannah, drive to binghamton to see feather, go to group, and such fun things like that. i think it will be good for me.




as hard as it is right now. the crying has gone down though. and thats a plus.