again its been so long since ive used this thing. and again so much has changed. ive been skating for assault city, ive been happy. its weird. but ive jumped into something a little on the weird side for me. the dating world. i meet people and have been out on actual dates, not just "hi i like you, we are now a couple" things. its weird to me and its had its ups and downs. i dated someone for 2 months, maybe longer, then out of nowhere he stopped talking to me. i looked up his twitter just to see what he was up to and from the looks of it, he was confused when i stopped texting him (keep in mind i had sent him about 5 texts with no response so i stopped) at another point in time i started talking to this guitarist for a local band. i should have known better with that one, guitarists and i dont tend to work out. we talked for weeks, made plans to meet up, then again, out of no where contact stopped. this is the thing im learning about dating as an adult rather than in school. you can just stop talking and it goes away with out guilt i guess. its made me less concerned about the whole thing. if things happen and work out then its awesome, if not, then its not a huge loss because clearly those people are jerks. aside from the jerks, this experience has caused me to realize just who i am. its funny that when you cut out the jerks who keep you down you learn that you are strong, beautiful and powerful in your own ways.theres always someone else who will notice these things. im pretty sure derby has helped with that as well, even if im not the best at it. thats it till i remember this exists again